I feel refreshed.
It’s kind of a hard feeling to describe, but the way I see it, it’s like I’m becoming extra adventurous. Having taken quite a long break from a lot of things to retrace my steps and reevaluate my life, I’ve been making greater plans for my future. And the refreshed feeling comes from knowing that rather than believing I have to start again from scratch, I’m simply taking every opportunity and all the potential that I already have and expanding upon it. Making use of all my resources. Realizing where I could be if I put in the work.
The craziest part about all of this is that I’m jumping in with both feet. Do I know what I’m going to do tomorrow? Fuck no. But I know that I want to make every day count, and move towards what I want. Even if it’s just in little ways…you build a house one brick at a time.
In a way the future is quite scary. We all have our ideas of what we want to do in life, but sometimes our fear hold us back from accomplishing them. Fear holds us back from going to new places, seeing new things, meeting new people, having new experiences. We fear that we aren’t capable of enjoying all of this in our lives, and thus settle for mediocrity. It’s not that we have no desire to excel above and beyond, it’s that we do not find ourselves worthy enough, or able enough. There is something that always holds us back.
Now I am beginning to see that the ability is there. The sad part is how long it’s taken me to realize it.
I have determined that everything I want to be and could be is possible if I could only acknowledge my capabilities. If I refused to set boundaries for myself then there is no stopping me.
The funny thing is that something like this should have been understood a long time ago, but I was too busy feeling incapable that I didn’t stop to think that perhaps I was meant for greater things. I have so many ideas, passions, opinions, that it’s difficult to just shut it all away and sweep it under the carpet. What is to be gained in being average? When I am old, will I look back on my younger years with regret for the things I didn’t do? Will I choose to live the life I want, or settle for something less than what I dreamed?
These are all things that I had been asking myself. And every time I think about giving up my goals and dreams just because I didn’t have the courage to go out and achieve them, it makes my heart sink. I don’t want to work a dead-end job. I don’t want to live in a rut, or subject myself to other peoples’ opinions and ideals.
I want to create memories. I want people to remember me for something. I want to do what I want to do in life, and how I want to do it, no questions asked. I want to travel the world. I want to be successful. I want to be a better person. I want to live fearlessly.
And now all those things that I have wanted to do but didn’t think I could, will be done. All it takes is an attitude adjustment. My outlook on everything has changed since I cleaned the lens I was looking through. Life is not that grim, but it’s here to challenge us. Life challenges us every day to be a better person, and to do something worth noting.
Believe and you can achieve, or so they say. And it’s about damn well time I started believing.
“The people crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones that do.”
Great post. I’m excited to see what the future has in store for you. I’m moving overseas in six weeks, and possibly never coming back to Australia, for many of the reasons you listed above. I don’t want to work in a job I hate, when I know I could do much better. Now is the time to take the steps forward, to ultimately do something I am passionate about. Knowing I can wake up every day and change people’s lives in some way is an amazing thing.
Me too, Tara! Good luck with everything. Where are you headed to?
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.’ We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we’re liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. -Marianne Williamson
Second favorite quote at the moment.
Religious or not, it’s a great quote.
Have you ever read The Magic of Thinking Big? This made me think of that (good) book. Good luck with everything.
Nope, never read it. Will look into it though. Thank you!
Well said – Something I am also trying to do…. Less stress and less worrying about tomorrow.
I haven’t blogged or posted here in a while but, i think this quote sums it all up…
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” – Mark Twain
Great post! I love your outlook and your decision to not let fear hold you back. Very inspiring. Well said, sista!
Just get your ass out there and go for it, girl. You’ve got nothing to fear. Live fearlessly and like the quote from “themurr” says, you’ll inspire others to do the same that may be in fear of putting themselves out there. You are already inspiring others to go after their goals with your blog entries. Good luck to you!
it is funny that you say that, because in the past months you changed your goals from: olympic lifting, figure competing and as of late, powerlifting. you have done all this stuff already. What is it this time, lol? this is not exactly the way to accomplish shit, if you haven’t noted.
Thank you for those wonderful words of wisdom, David. I have my reasons for not continuing with a couple of things (such as Olympic lifting and figure). This post has nothing to do with my lifting life. Not everyone figures out what kind of thing they want to compete in automatically. A lot of times it’s a long process filled with a lot of indecision and finally settling down on something that suits you the most.
Now go be negative somewhere else.
Agreed. Take your negativity somewhere else, David. Please and thank you.